Saying Fuck You

I have been self employed for 3 years now.  I have loved it.  The only very big thing that sucks, is constantly being at home.  I am home all day almost every day.  I am so extremely tired of it.  I have gotten so socially awkward that I have to take a pill to go to Wal*mart usually because the anxiety is so bad.  Being around people makes me anxious.  It is no wonder.  Once you work for yourself, by yourself, you realize how many assholes you have worked with and for.  You realize all of the daily stressful bullshit you had to deal with.  Not to mention, you spend a little more time on the internet than you may have before and discover there are soooo many more sick, nasty, twisted, idiotic people and situations out there...many that you had never even conceived a thought close to it.  

My rant today has been triggered by my being reminded of why I am my own boss in the first place.  I have almost always hated where I worked.  From grocery, to retail, to several different daycare centers, it was all some form of hell to me.  Not only do you have to deal with nasty customers with shitty attitudes, but you have to deal with bosses choosing to treat a known crackhead better than you, lying to you, making you feel guilt and terror at the thought of having to call in sick because they are too mentally lazy to run a business in a correct way.  This post may seem very emotional, and that is because it is.  I am so tired of seeing people mess up continuously and still get the better end of the stick.  I know that God has a reason for everything.  I am not blaming God here.  I am blaming the stupid ass people that let their stupidity get in the way of their judgement.  I am blaming the people that would rather pretend something isn't happening than to fix it.

I am having a "mad at the world" day.  I am not really mad at the world, just a lot of it.  It seems people are getting worse and worse.  My faith in humanity disappears by the second.  Is it OK to give a crackhead more hours at work than almost anyone else? Someone that literally comes to work high on speed.  I finally said fuck it and quit.  One thing that being my own boss has taught me is that I don't NEED people.  I can be like "fuck you, I will do it on my own and cut YOU out".  So, I implore you to think about all the people you can say "fuck you" to today.  Maybe not out loud, but on the  inside.  It is amazing how freeing it is to realize you don't have to deal with dumb ass people if you do not want to.  I may not have many friends, but the ones I have are not fake, they are not dumb asses, they are not crackheads.  Someone needs to step up and tell dumb people how dumb they are being.  If I don't talk to you anymore, it is probably because I think you are a dumb ass :)