Randomness, Welbutrin, Argo, government, religion

It has been quite a while since I have taken Welbutrin.  I have to say, honestly, I feel more positive than I have in YEARS!  Kyle and I went to his friend's house to drink a little and hang out.  Normally I would have been irritated and angry at Kyle for "drinking too much" and "acting dumb" but last night I was completely fine.  He even expressed to me that he was so appreciative that I was "fun" last night.  Then today we had a great day together.  I have not been happy with him for a while.  It is totally not his fault.  I realize that now.  Yes, there may be a few annoying tendencies here and there, but I feel more in love than before.  I felt like I was drifting away from my family.  Now, I feel more connected and excited about my life, about my day.

For anyone on antidepressants, please evaluate your mind.  I thought I was just getting worse....me, personally.  Now that I am off of Welbutrin, I feel almost normal again!  I feel in control.  I feel happy.  It is not all sunshine and rainbows.  I have depressed moments.  But, my moments do not last nearly as long as they used to.

My sleeping is my only issue right now.  I have not been tired at night and sometimes do not fall asleep until midnight.  I know it will even out, or I might take allergy medicine until it does even out.  But, compared to my depression, a few sleep problems is a welcomed change.

I achieved a goal last week.  It was not very large, but it was achieved.  I am terrible about goals.  With a better outlook on things, I will concentrate on goals.  I need to work on focusing.

I watched Argo today and was extremely bothered by it.  It got me on a whole "why can't people get along and do the right thing" kick.  I know that not all of Argo was completely true, but still it was sad.  To think that the government seems to have not learned their lesson (recent embassy attack) to arm them to the fullest.  I am so grateful to live in America where I can have an opinion, freely feel it and express it (for now).  My one prayer is that people would brighten up.  How can people of this world be so cruel?  Don't they understand we are all connected?  Why is there so much hate and anger?  I know if someone hurt my family, I would want to kill them.  But if someone has a difference of opinion or religion, I do not feel the need to kill them!  It is insane to me! How can people feel this is right?  I will keep praying this prayer, and being positive to people.  Being positive to people is not always easy, but sometimes right is not easy.  I invite people to have compassion, to put yourself in another's place.  I know it is hard.  But we have to.  We have to be positive and believe that good shall prevail.