Ever feel like you don't belong? How about almost every day in your own house/life? I feel like an outcast and some may say it is my own fault. Maybe so, but some things do not help...like constantly being critiqued about EVERYTHING that I say and do. Or always being told to "take my pills" when I am just somewhat upset. How are things like this going to help me? Imagine someone standing behind you every second pointing out every single thing that you say and do, always in my ear telling me that I shouldn't be saying this, or I shouldn't be feeling that, or I should write in my journal, or I should go take my pills.
Not only that, but imagine someone that does not believe that what you are going through (depression) is real. Or that your really messed up childhood is no excuse for being depressed, or down, or angry. Or that I should just "pull myself up by my bootstraps". I wish it was that easy. If I could reach my bootstraps, I would have pulled myself up already. Now imagine that this person that constantly critiques, angers, annoys, adds stress instead of unloading is the one person you are supposed to trust to be there for you, lift you up instead of knocking you down.
I know my feelings are my own fault, but I have not yet learned how to control these things, hence therapy and medication. But, people need to understand that not everyone is the same. Not everyone reacts to things the same, and not everyone is perfect....like some obviously believe they are.
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